I realized it’s been three months seen I’ve posted on this thread. Update I guess…I’ve been reenergized as I mentioned in my last post and has really been liberating. My frame of mind after admitting to myself that I am gay has changed everything. I still haven’t found the right guy to have sex with, but just being more open about my sexual desires has allowed me to star enjoying my self a lot more again. My last post was three months ago about my frequency of mastubating. Well it’s very much the same and going strong. Sometimes daily and a few times daily. But, realistically 3 to 4 times a week has been really steady. I want it more and I think about it a lot more. But, I do have to be productive too. Lol.
I am also looking more for the opportunity to find that someone to enjoy sex with, I once thought I would never come out and keep it all a secret bottled up. But, that thought process is gone. As I move closer to being who I am I am going to find that relationship. I also realize that just being open to sex without worrying about a relationship has changed everything too. The relationship will happen eventually if I get out there and interact with others. I know there are other guys out there like me that want it. So, I’m not going to be stupid but I’m going to find sex to get me started. I owe that to myself. Being gay and not acting on it has not been fare to my true desires.
That realization and openness has really made me want to masturbate much more frequently again. I love it and I am hopeful I can report my first experience with a guy sooner than later. Until then, I’m enjoying myself and my cum as often as possible. I love it…
